So its been just a little over a year since “my world” was turned upside down. It’s really strange because I’m really far from where I thought I would be at this point in my life. Scared to death of commitment and playing the field…very atypical of my history. After my whirlwind of dates and busyness, I’ve spent the majority of this weekend by myself, trying to breathe and catch up on things that I haven’t allowed time for. Don’t get me wrong I absolutely love dating, country dancing, and my thrilling social life, but I miss a few things too. The problem is I don’t think I miss any of it enough to jump back in, or maybe I just havent met the right person. 1. The biggest thing I miss is cuddling. I absolutely love my cuddle nights (some guys are just SO good at it!), but there is something about having someone there with you at night…every night. I miss that. 2. The only other thing I miss is feeling like I have a purpose in a relationship, like I’m commited to someone, and I matter to them.
I was thinking the other day and came to the conclusion that since I was 18 years old, I haven’t been single longer than a couple months (if even a month)…WOW have I changed…and guess what?! It’ll probably be that way for awhile. The jury’s still out on whether thats a good thing or not.
