Erin's Entrys

Violence is spread world wide and there are families on the street
And we sell drugs to children now oh why can’t we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it okay
But I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way ..

Just wanted to blog on this, but I don’t have time right now, so I wanted to write it down so I would remember..

I always made fun of those girls on the dance team who got extensions and they either were the wrong color or just looked dumb.  I promised myself I wouldn’t be one of those girl EVER not even for Halloween.  However, I found some perfectly matching extensions today and I’m counting on you to give me the honest opinion of how fake does it look….Don’t hold back or I will individually fly to wherever you are and beat you for allowing me to look like an idiot!

To many people outside of the LDS religion, when someone thinks of a Mormon, they think of a person with outstanding moral character and fiber.  I would like to think of that as true, or at least hope that it is a goal that we strive for.  HOWEVER, recently have come to find that many also associate this character to mean that fun and humor is frowned upon.

Recently, I have noticed a common trend in much of my conversation.  Attempting to find a balance between my past prior to my baptism (childhood, high school, college including being a bartender, model, and all the crazy fun) and my life now.  Being newly baptized (nearly 3 years ago), I did everything I could to learn about the gospel and to implement it in my life.  I had an absolute blast in a new way…the Provo way…where alcohol is never around and people find creative ways to have a good time.  I loved it!  Then when I was married, I continued.  However, while I delved into the scriptures and tried to better myself, I ignored my past and wanted to pretend like none of it happened.  How ignorant I was.  Some of my favorite memories occurred during those times.  Some amazing friendships created.  Many lessons learned.  Granted, some decisions (well probably alot of them) were extremely poor choices, but I have since repented and been forgiven of them.  By not acknowledging and embracing my past, I had forgotten so much of what makes me the person I am.  We are molded by our experiences and become more prepared for the future if we continue learning (from both the positives and negatives) along the way.

I try to be the Mormon of outstanding moral fiber, but I maintain that a person can do that and keep thier sense of humor, thier love for life , and an open mind.  I learn from those of other faiths on a regular basis, relating both to things of a temporal and spiritual nature.  I know I’m not perfect.  Although I continue to strive for that, I recognize that its much more than not swearing (which I’m not all that great at), but instead a change of heart. For the past few years, I tried to be perfect in ways that were noticeable, to appear to be a good Mormon, but I have always known that my weakness is judging others primarily from thier appearance and making fun.  I’ve decided that instead of focusing on those things that make me appear to be a good Mormon, I instead need to focus on the not so noticeable, such as the commandment to love your neighbor as yourself.   I’ll be a work in progress.

 I am happy to be around others’ that don’t share the same belief system as myself.  It gives me the opportunity to remember why I believe what I believe and enjoy the company of some really awesome people.  I’m perfectly content being around my friends in thier comfortable settings even if that means in a bar or somewhere that alcohol is present.  I’m strong enough to resist temptation regarding the word of wisdom, but I’m not willing to miss out on the friendship of great people who share similar beliefs, but not identical.  In short, I won’t be shedding this personality in an attempt for perfection, I’ll just work on perfecting ME.

Things I love, missed, and recognize are AWESOME!  (and make me really happy!)

My College Friends (even the gasp liberal one) hehe Elise!

Hip Hop Music and dancing

Country dancing

People of different walks of life with different opinions

Throwing an absolute fit about Illinois Football

Laughing about the past

**Amended due to Whitney:  Dancing at Station…with or without a dance floor…because does it really matter if its not really a dancing kinda place?  NO!

**Learning to cwalk in the back of Joe’s…had it for about a year…tried again last week…NOPE don’t remember

This list is ALOT longer…Im just getting writers block!

Go Utes! But only in FOOTBALL!

Does anyone have any idea how to add a blog to your blogroll that isn’t on WordPress?  Elise just started a new blog that I would like to easily track (she cracks me up!), but I can’t seem to figure it out.  Help would be appreciated!

Life is AWESOME right now!  Very few complaints!  School is great and will be winding down soon.  I have been teaching finance quite  lot at Murray High.  I will probably be student teaching there in January, which might be cause to move to SLC which could be a lot of fun, but I’m still undecided.  I’m still working on Carissa, but I think Kristy is sold on the idea   Very few complaints except I think (actually I know) I spend more time turning guys down for dates and explaining why I don’t want to date them, then I actually do dating the one I want.  Love football season and hate football season all at the same time.  WELL actually the only thing I really hate about football season is that  ILLINOIS FOOTBALL sucks right now…One of the only truly great things about living in the West is that I don’t have to endure the pain of watching every week.  If I actually got it on tv, I would watch it, then EVERY Saturday would be ruined for quite awhile.

My motto: You have to at least like em...If you aren't die hard at least pretend to be for my sake EVEN IF THEY SUCK!

I went clubbing (Studio 600 doesn’t count!) for the first time in about 4 years a few weeks ago.  Loved it!The company was awesome, but I didn’t realize how much I missed all my IL girls, both Charleston and Champaign alike.  Although I wonder what it would be like if I did move back to Illinois.  I know most everybody has moved, so I know it wouldn’t be the same (and the fact that I don’t drink anymore might change it up a little!), but I’m sure it would still be a blast!

Interesting to consider that I still have NO IDEA where I’m going to end up.  I think I might work on a massive campaign to return all of my best friends to the same region of the country.  Then it would make it a lot easier to figure out where I wanna be!  Until then Carpe Diem and make the Choice to be Happy